A few reasons for the delay in a new post:
- Training for a marathon scares the crap out of me and is taking over my thoughts and energy. (Marathon is Dec. 13th)
- School is kicking my butt this quarter as my nutrition class is not one of my favorites anymore.
- Lang and I are desperately working on blissfully co-habitating with one another, which has proved harder than first thought.
- Darian’s school and soccer schedule has seemed to taken over my schedule as well.
- The start of some of my favorite shows and the discovering of some new favorites. (So You Think You Can Dance, Biggest Loser and my new favorites…Cougar Town and Modern Family!)
Some new and exciting news…Lang is done with his book and it’s REALLY-REALLY good! I sort of have to say that but I am probably tougher on Lang than anyone and I think this book is going to be wonderfully received by anyone who picks it up. It’s not just a religious book…it’s about mental strength, faith and hope above all else and yes, God is in there too. 
He is now in the process of researching publishers, which turns out to be more work than writing the book itself. He is hoping to have it out to some publishers by the end of the year. Keep your fingers crossed!
I have started my recovering process from the accident and think that this is harder than what I did for Lang in the hospital. I am suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Nothing too drastic or disturbing, just alot of anxiety, frustration with my thoughts and actions not matching up, intense fear and irrational irritability and anger. Poor Lang and Darian get the brunt of this situation but they are handling it well. I am at least relieved to have a name to what I have been feeling for that past few months because I started to feel like I was going a little crazy and not very loving/lovable.
We are only 6 days away from the one year anniversary of Lang’s accident and I can’t believe how far he has come and how much we have accomplished. I can’t wait to see what this next year will bring us. New job? New home? New baby? Who knows?!? We have decided to not really decide anything too far ahead and to just enjoy what we have when we have it. Nothing is guaranteed in this life and everything/everyone we have is a gift.
Tuesday, the 10th is the actual anniversary of the accident…on that day, could we ask everyone to say a small prayer of thanks for the mercy and love shown by God, family, friends and strangers? Thank you.
Carla
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Dear Carla,
You are doing really well .. I’m sorry about your PTSD which arrived months after Lang’s accident, and hope that you get through it soon. Did a Doctor diagnose you ? I wonder what you’re afraid of, and angry at ? Do tell me.
Out of Bad comes Good … a spiral circle …
I send you my love, dear valiant Friend,
Jane.
Prays are coming. Recovery is a process, and give yourself the time and love that you gave Lang.